God ,may you send me a man like him now?You said that you like siners but hate sins.I am one Father but i just need a model of John Proctor.I miss him so much.I truly have never loved other men than him.All this accusations i made in Salem are due to my love for him.I was even able to kill anyone to defend my self and my feeling for John.Unfortunately i couldnt reach my goal.I believed a moment that my plans were well set.I could have thought further.Oh!love can give hope and strength! i tried,i hoped to win him over.But i didnt hope to lose him.and that bitch "cold Elizabeth" was a fence between John and me.She was as cold as winter and never took care of my John.I just hate her!.i actually wonder how he put on with her for all those years.And what was John getting from a so cold woman who can't even tell and show her feelings?Anyway at least i wouldnt have to see that bitch with him.I was so jealous to see them together.It is a draw we both lost him.I partly think that Elizabeth got more from him than i got.Of course they have children ,but i think i have something more important with John.It is this souvenir of the wonderful moments i had with my John.I feel so proud of myself i did spend time with my love.Goodness! It is so difficult to lose the love of your life.I doubt not John is the man of my life.I shouldn't have only used my power over the girls.Danforth could have been one of my target.I think that was what i should have done.This would have been a success to make myself attractive to Danforth.Another useless person in all this is my uncle Parris.He is so selfish!Although he is one of the menber of the court he couldn't understand my feeling for John.He could have helpt to give the cold woman a death sentence.then set my John free ,so i could take care of his children .I would be sharing my life with him if that helpless Parris wasn't only fighting for his name.I am so happy with myself i made him pennyless before coming here in Boston. Was there any other alternative for me which i could have used to have my John beside me?I could have messed up everything in the court.But how?No i could have poisoned Elizabeth while i was working for her.Yes that was at the very beginning.i thought that with all the threats she would have given up and leave John for me.That is a great idea! but i don't think this would be of any help now because John is dead.It is not late actually.I could go back to Salem to kill her.this is because she is happy again with another man and me without my jOHN.I wish John knew i love him more than Elizabeth does.I cant really find someone to replace John in my life.but Elizabeth found one.I hope you John, since you are an angel now know why i made all this mess in Salem.It was for you.Now i have to go back to that land and find the cold woman to carry on the fight.I wouldnt end it til i kill her!
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God ,may you send me a man like him now?You said that you like siners but hate sins.I am one Father but i just need a model of John Proctor.I miss him so much.I truly have never loved other men than him.All this accusations i made in Salem are due to my love for him.I was even able to kill anyone to defend my self and my feeling for John.Unfortunately i couldnt reach my goal.I believed a moment that my plans were well set.I could have thought further.Oh!love can give hope and strength! i tried,i hoped to win him over.But i didnt hope to lose him.and that bitch "cold Elizabeth" was a fence between John and me.She was as cold as winter and never took care of my John.I just hate her!.i actually wonder how he put on with her for all those years.And what was John getting from a so cold woman who can't even tell and show her feelings?Anyway at least i wouldnt have to see that bitch with him.I was so jealous to see them together.It is a draw we both lost him.I partly think that Elizabeth got more from him than i got.Of course they have children ,but i think i have something more important with John.It is this souvenir of the wonderful moments i had with my John.I feel so proud of myself i did spend time with my love.Goodness! It is so difficult to lose the love of your life.I doubt not John is the man of my life.I shouldn't have only used my power over the girls.Danforth could have been one of my target.I think that was what i should have done.This would have been a success to make myself attractive to Danforth.Another useless person in all this is my uncle Parris.He is so selfish!Although he is one of the menber of the court he couldn't understand my feeling for John.He could have helpt to give the cold woman a death sentence.then set my John free ,so i could take care of his children .I would be sharing my life with him if that helpless Parris wasn't only fighting for his name.I am so happy with myself i made him pennyless before coming here in Boston. Was there any other alternative for me which i could have used to have my John beside me?I could have messed up everything in the court.But how?No i could have poisoned Elizabeth while i was working for her.Yes that was at the very beginning.i thought that with all the threats she would have given up and leave John for me.That is a great idea! but i don't think this would be of any help now because John is dead.It is not late actually.I could go back to Salem to kill her.this is because she is happy again with another man and me without my jOHN.I wish John knew i love him more than Elizabeth does.I cant really find someone to replace John in my life.but Elizabeth found one.I hope you John, since you are an angel now know why i made all this mess in Salem.It was for you.Now i have to go back to that land and find the cold woman to carry on the fight.I wouldnt end it til i kill her!
MONOLOGUE OF SERA KOUKPAKI.
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